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I was going to put pictures on here today but I changed my mind. I don't feel like shrinking the sizes in paint so they don't look all disformed. So yeah today was a nice day over all. Everything between me and Joe is going AMAZING!! I love him. And I realize how much I am hating school and I am getting all confused about growing up and college and what I want to be. Yeah why do I worry about that...I don't know? Mom scheduled my hair appointment and I still have to call for Joe's bootaneer and go shoe, make-up, jewelry shopping. Joe will take me Saturday he says. And Amanda isn't going but whatever. Not my problem. Today in gym was freaking gay. I mean maybe I am more mature for my age then I thought but the people in my grade are annoying as hell. I love volleyball but gym makes me hate it. It's cold in my house but so nice out side. I love the weather! It's so pretty. And feels so good. Skirt tomorrow deffinatly. Mmm...life is good...no life is incredible. I may seem stressed a lot but I just realized now how much better things are without worrying about going on a cruise or making everyone happy (because they need to do that themselves) but everything is so...perfect. Thank you Joe...and Nina for that matter. I like when we work late together and get to talk and dance in the aisles. That is tons of fun.
I am off to do homework and shower and stuff, you know talk to Joe and eat and all that. The norm. Oh yes. I got a coloring book and I have 2 books to read and have to finish my cosmopolitan magazine (best magazine in the world) before the new one. I love you all. Good night.
I love you Joe with all my heart. You are my everything. Nothing will ever take you away from me. Thank you for everything you have given me. It is way more than I deserve.
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I am done with this xanga. I am sick of them reading it so I am going to a new one. If you want it, IM me and ask me. I won't comment it either so the only way you get it is if you IM me. Wow...334 days on this one...that's a record for me.
<3 erica
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So last night after my panic attack it was not so bad. I love him and I am not holding anything against him. Amanda was hilarious and Nina was so cute hugging my leg. And I didn't go to work this morning. I am in a not so good mood right now. I got my prom dress which is super pretty. Something is wrong with me and I just feel like I'm losing everything and everyone.
I love him...5 months today.
I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend...
...Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
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A lot of things have been on my mind lately. I haven't been all that in a good mood but you all have probably noticed. I am really sick of people telling me I look tired or like shit. If you are that freaking stupid let me tell you that I already fucking know. Today was good until about 4:30 when I found out I can't change my hours tomorrow. I think I'm going to go to Matt's party Saturday because I need to just let some steam off and hang out with Amanda & Nina because I don't do that very often anymore. Life is gay and I can't wait to get out of high school and not have to work at Acme anymore. And I can't wait till next year when I won't be having dance control my life anymore. Yeah...this week overall sucked.
I love him more than anything.
And to make matters worse, I don't have anyway of getting a prom dress anytime soon and prom is in 22 days. Not enough time. And probably not enough mone since Acme could be going on strike next week. |
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Cruise tomorrow. Mom is making me go the show today. Fuck. I am going to have no time to get ready at all. I can't find my suitcase. Everything is going to be a freakin reck. I need to go shopping to get a few things. I need to do laudry and wait...why am I talking about this when none of you care what I have to get done? Hm oh well. I hate this. I don't want to go. I think I might be the only person not looking forward for a cruise.
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